THE FALLEN ONES

Man, this hurts. I know I am most probably going to look back at this post in the far future and most probably cringe at myself, but I am really hurt right now and this is the only place that can help me slowly get over it. I hope "you" never read this.

Its August 31st, here am i sitting on my bed wondering into the oblivion  thinking whats wrong with myself. Relationships are officially my biggest fears, I mean its so flipping scary to invest all your emotions into someone. No matter how good things are or how in love you are, your significant other could always just loose feelings for you and be done just like that. The worst part is you do not have a single sense of control over any of that.

Is it  bad for me to think that being in a relationship isn't all about making out, hooking up, and having sex all the time. I mean i understand that most people think it is, but its just i believe that being in a relationship would mean something much more, like going over to her house and watching movies, trying out challenges,  stuff our tummies and fall asleep alot. I truly believe that relationship is all about making one another feel happy instead of just satisfying our personal needs.